This evening, I'm not doing too much drinking...or thinking for that matter. I'd like to say that I am spending my sober (pregnant) New Year's reflecting and meditating on all past endeavors and future hopes. But on the eve of this new year, I feel the presence of so much change to come. I'm on the eve of something much more than just 2010.
In thinking about a new year, I mostly feel eager to meet my new baby girl in a couple of months. I feel anxious thinking about life with two and how much my relationship will have to change with Julian. I feel nervous about not working for awhile again and the financial strain that will bring. I feel grateful to have a strong relationship with my partner and to grow our family. That's pretty much as far as I can see into the new year. And, that's fine.
All newness will come and I hope to welcome it best I can when it arrives. As for now, I'll just be conscious of the introspection I need to prepare for it all.
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